Of course, here comes my annual summary of the year’s highlights that may or may not come with hindsight comments.
Finished my undergraduate thesis
Earned by Bachelor of Arts Degree in English Studies, major in Language
Had my first job
Been a “Makati Girl” for 3 months
Handed in a resignation letter
Had my second job
Watched more than 3 Filipino films in the movie house
Finished more than 10 books
Stayed off from social networking sites most of the time
The list is noticeably short this year, if you notice, and that’s where hindsight comes in. I realize that circumstances and personal reasons have kept me from a lot of things this year, such as certain activities and/or gatherings that I might have otherwise been able to attend.
While I do not regret the choices I made, I do look back with a tinge of sadness, and a commitment with myself to learn to manage and sort out my priorities. I would like to still be able to enjoy life, after all. And doing the things I love most really do matter to me.
P.S. Personal stuff and/or negative “lowlights” not included
“If I can stop one heart from breaking
I shall not live in vain
If I can ease one life the aching
Or cool one pain
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again
I shall not live in vain.”—Emily Dickinson (via thresca)
“Try a thing you haven’t done three times. Once, to get over the fear of doing it. Twice, to learn how to do it. And a third time, to figure out whether you like it or not.”—Virgil Garnett Thomson (via quote-book)
“I actually attack the concept of happiness. The idea that - I don’t mind people being happy - but the idea that everything we do is part of the pursuit of happiness seems to me a really dangerous idea and has led to a contemporary disease in Western society, which is fear of sadness. It’s a really odd thing that we’re now seeing people saying “write down 3 things that made you happy today before you go to sleep”, and “cheer up” and “happiness is our birthright” and so on. We’re kind of teaching our kids that happiness is the default position - it’s rubbish. Wholeness is what we ought to be striving for and part of that is sadness, disappointment, frustration, failure; all of those things which make us who we are. Happiness and victory and fulfillment are nice little things that also happen to us, but they don’t teach us much. Everyone says we grow through pain and then as soon as they experience pain they say “Quick! Move on! Cheer up!” I’d like just for a year to have a moratorium on the word “happiness” and to replace it with the word “wholeness”. Ask yourself “is this contributing to my wholeness?” and if you’re having a bad day, it is.”—Hugh Mackay (via slekes)
How can you buy or sell the sky - the warmth of the land? The idea is strange to us. Yet we do not own the freshness of the air or the sparkle of the water. How can you buy them from us? We will decide in our time. Every part of this earth is sacred to my people. Every shining pine needle, every sandy shore, every mist in the dark woods, every clearing, and every humming insect is holy in the memory and experience of my people.—
The white man must treat the beasts of this land as his brothers. I am a savage and I do not understand any other way. I have seen thousands of rotting buffaloes on the prairie left by the white man who shot them from a passing train. I am a savage and do not understand how the smoking iron horse can be more important than the buffalo that we kill only to stay alive. What is man without the beasts? If all the beasts were gone, men would die from great loneliness of spirit, for whatever happens to the beast also happens to the man.